i|Lusion

2006-07-14T08:11:00.000-07:00

moved
to
deutschland.
goodbye.

VJC volleyball ROCKS. =DDD

2006-05-06T00:52:00.000-07:00

its been quite some time since i blogged, havin been so busy wit trnns, comps, pw n sth else. so i was quite surprised wen i saw so many ppl tagged in response to my entry dated 22nd april.

well wad i wana say is, i hav clarified matters wit anqi, i've told her wad r my opinions, she told me hers, n i offered her my apologies. cuz i was harsh n wrong for judgin her so quickly without urdstdin her situation, but i stil do feel tat she shud hav tried harder to accept bein in vj. wh means, im sorry for e way i behaved, but not for my tots. im not oso sayin tis on acct for tat annoymous person who tagged, but is to jus let my frenz, who r concerned abt me, urdstd. tis is definitely not ma hou pao too. but if u dun believe, i dun care. y care so much abt other ppl
s opinions? =) so long as anqi n i both noe wads gg on, den its fine. thanks gals, for givin me ur support. thou i only saw it today, haa but nevertheless it stil matters alot to me n i thank u all for tat. HUGS. i love u gals! n mathew, thank you too. thank u all for not judgin me so harshly lke i did anqi n lke annoymous did me but talk to me rationally. =)

yea well. back to my life. really been v busy. vb vb n vb. laggin behind alot in sch. n oso pw is drivin me crazy. i realise our grp is actu not v productive. it may b e loudest, but not e most productive. n i dun hav e time to really sit dwn wit dem n do a gd job. everyone is busy wit their ccas. n im frantically tryin to do my tuts. qt stressed la, laggin behind in everytink. got econs test nex tue, tink i'l flunk it. bleahs. but oh well, at least i get to talk to him more tis days. haaa. happy abt it. n vjc guys n gals team got into nationals top 4 so im v v glad tat our hardwork has paid off. =D v proud of e entire vball team. hees. tml morn got trnn. qt lookin forward to it. gg back to sch for speech day nex thur. wil get to c jingwen n frenz. glad. ha. ok i'l stop here. gota get back to doin my research. tc everyone.

Good Friday.

2006-04-14T06:50:00.000-07:00

wen to Bethesda Bedok-Tampines Church (BBTC) today wit uncle, aunt, cousins n sis. had service, saw ppl bein baptised, sang praises, said prayers. urdstd more abt God n Jesus Christ who shed his blood to save us all, n i really wish to urdstd more. wana get my hands on a bible n start readin. =) wana go to church, for youth service wit frenz so i wun feel as odd but not many of my close frenz r Christians. bleahs.

talkin abt ytd. had trnn at KA at 7pm. i felt tat my receivin improved, in e sense tat i wen to e rite places to wait for balls, or at least i tried. but spikin deproved, tink cuz abt 2 wks nv do gym le. well coach did comment on me. he said i knew how to "read balls" n noe wher e balls r gg, but i dun hav e "ben qian" to receive well. wherreas xiying had e ben qian, but duno wher to go. i dun tink so. i tink i jus happen to b lucky, i dun really noe how to predict wher e balls wil go to. but e fact tat i dun hav e ben qian, e skills, well tat sucked. but i wont giv up, i'l kp tryin. =)

andvball..

2006-04-10T05:14:00.000-07:00

hmms wen to c grace's n karmun's frenster profile jus now.. realised tat they're now v close. guess its cuz they're in ny vb.. seein them n e pics of andvball b girls 05.. i jus feel.. i duno. tis sadness. y i cudnt feel wad they felt. y i cud nv feel at ease wit dem. y i cudnt blend it n b part of dem. jus.. whys. tgtr for 4 yrs, but only 2 best frenz among e 9 girls. was it myself who held back, not allowin myself to get close to dem? or was it tat our characters jus nv matched.. i duno. i feel tis sense of regret den i nv felt tat close bond if frenship wit them, lke wad they share now.. n now i realise my ex teammates wil soon b my opponents in tis upcoming competition..it feels wierd. wil they bcome stronger den b4? wil i lose out to dem? i duno. it jus feels wierd..

he's got my jersey num! =))

2006-04-10T04:40:00.000-07:00

din hav pw today. she din come. we were supposed to stay back but of cuz we left. ha. met feli in canteen n realised they havent do gym yet so i cud join. but i din bring my sb. ha. so feli lend me shirt oso no use. at 1st i decided to jus heck n do gym, so i stayed on til lke 4.30 n was abt to chg b4 i felt tat it wud b really disgustin. haha. so i decided to go home in e end n not do gym. but b4 tat thou, i was outside e gym n i saw waikin in e gym. he was in e gym too, wearin his new jers. its my jersey num! 10!! but crap was, 10 aint my num anymore. bleahs. but anw. we talked!! hahas was so happy. we actu talked normally. i cudnt believe it. lol. he felt tat e num wasnt nice. but i tot it rocks. hahas den i said to him : " if u dun wan, giv me ur jersey." hahaha. pearl tot i said tat cuz it was HIS. but truth was, its bcuz of e number. haa. yea well. jus wanted to write tis out. haaa.

2006-04-09T05:11:00.000-07:00

went for principal meet parents talk ytd n missed e frenly agst MJ at hougang sports hall. heard they played well so im glad for them. went PS wit sis n vb mates. saw tis stall selling personalised poker cards. very nice, unique n wads best was, there were majong cards! haha how convenient to play majong, anywhere n everywhere. ha. were talkin abt buyin it for vb chalet in june. ha. cost $10 if i rmbr correctly. we din buy in e end thou. ha.

ytd dad came back from work a lunatic. he went crazy, ranting n ravin at us, scoldin us for everyting n nth. got real frustrated n irrtated, wanted to tel him to stop it. but wantin to prevent further scoldings n not wantin to b rude, i kept my mouth shut. seconds later, he asked abt my new jerseys, y i chose 14, blah blah. a 180 degree chg witin secs, i cudnt adjust n answered him in e kind of irritated tone. after tat he asked my sis abt stuff n wen my sis was rude to him ( as usual ), e volcano erupted agn. he started scoldin us for not talkin to him properly n stuff. u noe jus scoldin for all e rite n wrong things. cudnt stand him. mum cudnt too. n my poor mum, got scalded at work ytd by some stupid dumb uncle who went to use a pot wit a loose handle even after my mum warned him. now she's got 5 day mc n a swollen foot. but at least my mum gets to rest at home n we can spend more time wit her.

dad's not back yet. wonder how he'l b lke today. gg to watch Tristan and Isolde tml wit pj. ha kinda dumb yea, 2 gals gg to watch a romance story. but i wana use tis time to catch up wit her. =) yea i miss u pj.

well, been abt a wk or more since i told myself to giv up. successful to a extend. but i stil hav feelings for him. cant help it, jus lke e age gap cant b helped. hmms.

the journey to self-discovery..

2006-03-29T02:18:00.000-08:00

mr chew talked to us jus now. leadin us on a journey to self-discovery. i nv expected to live, but i did. i nv expected to receive medicine from some ppl, but i did. upon seein pearl n cass's tears, i really wanted to take their place instead. i initially wanted mr chew to stop e entire thing, it was hurtin everyone badly. but i din, n everyone shed tears. bein able to live wasnt a gd feelin, u had to bear wit e guilt n e pain of seein e others' tears. if u din giv someone medicine, it doesnt mean u dun care for or trust tat person, its a diff choice for everyone. i cudnt choose. emotions were high for everyone, esp so for mr chew i guess, since he has to go thru it again wit e guys. i wonder if e guys wud tear. but i guess not. but i really learnt from today n im glad mr chew org tis. my feelings towards him seems to hav turned for e beta. i duno. we'l c how.

ytd i felt tat i really really shud giv up on him. it seemed tat it was really impossible. but there times n events tat happen, wh make me tink otherwise. is it wishful tinkin on my side agn or is wad im sensin true? i duno.

message to bonnie, mingfern, feli, xi ying, gwen, mingjie, amanda, clara, cass n pearl:

i love u all. whether i gave u medicine or not, i stil love u. thank u so so much for e great great memories n frenships. =)

4605 class outing ytd. angelina flyin to aust today.

2006-03-26T01:18:00.000-08:00

hmms. had 46 class outin ytd. wen late. reached ecp at abt 5plus. sat on e breakwater, watchin boon, teck beng, jingzhi n others throwin pebbles into e sea. fallin for jason's lame tricks and tryin to push ppl into e sea. was fun. really missed 46 alot. after tat victor n xue lin came. den bihui. they started hidin each other's slippers in e sand, havin diggin hole comp. lol. typical bihui. n typical of jason, boon, xuelin n victor to join in. lol. after tat wen pp for dinner. haha walkin to bus stop wen a 16 came. i said we cud take 16 to pp, stil wonderin whether wan to run, n suddenly chengyi zoomed past us to run for e bus. lol. so we took it, den wen it turned rite b4 pp den i rmbred 16 din go pp. ha. walked back. lol. had dinner at kfc. poked xuelin's 6 pac. lol. xl is damn damn fit now. rock solid pacs. n i mean ROCK SOLID. haha. me n bi hui, typical bimbos, walauin over his pacs. lol. he n victor din eat fried food for lke 2 mths. all cuz of canoein. lol. i fed xl french fries while he was stil queuin for his food, wit it stuck btw his teeth, he looked at vic wit amzement n called victor! haha. tat was how deprived he was. lol. tough stuff, canoein. n many hockers from 46, haha. jason, limei, chee sheng. after havin hockey durin pe in anderson all e time they're stil not tired of it. boon's stil at squash, for e same reasons as me i realise, to finally win after 4 yrs of losin.
angelina flyin off today. din go n send her off cuz stil hav loads of hw to do. wishin her all da best.

hmms. each time i c him at class outings, i wud owaes wonder if i made e rite decision den. is it true tat at tat pt in time, i cudnt c e man tat he cud b? i owaes wonder if i'l regret my decision, after seein him at class outings. but there's nth i can do now, n i'l only hav myself to blame if i really do regret it. its wierd, how i owaes tink abt tis upon seein him, n yet wen i dun c him, i wudnt tink abt it, i wud b interested in my own ec. hmm hard to figure it out. only time wil tel.

i really miss 46. so envious tat vic, j, boon n chee sheng can b in e same class. while me, jw, bh, deb n jul r lke all diff schs. 4mths ago i wished tat 46 cud hav wen to e same jc, n b back in e same class, now i stil tink e same. no class can ever b as fun as 4605. n now tat aik siong, law, mak n ben left, 06s37 aint e same too. i really really miss e past. n of all these guys, i miss aik siong e most. no one calls me teng, lai in e same way now. i envy aik siong's class now in tj. they're so lucky. truely.

frenly wit tp.

2006-03-21T05:58:00.000-08:00

so sad. today frenly wit tp. C at 1st said pearl played 3rd, i play 4th, mj play 5th set. den suddenly he put me in for 3rd set, pearl sit out. yea well. so zun. N came in, sat dwn at e stage wit his frenz n watched. n so zun, wen pearl was playin, e guys came in, sat dwn n watched. such timing. n e sad tink is, i got scolded by C. he really raised his voice n from his tone u cud tel he was pissed. got scolded for my receiving. ya i noe its my fault but it stil doesnt feel gd. den my spikin was quite gd today, i personally tink, due to gym ytd, but thru out tat set i only spiked lke wad 5 balls? i hardly rmbr i spiked. cept for tat 2 balls wh were not bad. but e wasted tink was, i din get more chance to spike. after we lost e 4th set, C immediately put back e main team players for e 5th set. so kiasu. lke seriously. we already won 1st 3 sets, so wads wrong in lettin reserves play for e last set, for jus tat little experience? mj told me there n den, tat he was ks. n i totally agree. now at trnn, frenlys, im already lke sittin out most of e time. i duno how i'l feel wen it comes to e real comps. hai. kept broodin abt it. gettin scolded cuz i din play well. n oso. kp hopin tat kzai wud msg me, comfort me. silly n totally wishful tinkin of cuz. but i cud dream cudnt i. hai stil feelin kinda dwn. hope i can receive well on thur, spike well, play well. i not jus wan myself to improve, but e whole team to improve tgtr. we wana b champs.

vjc volleyball rocks

2006-03-15T05:23:00.000-08:00

hahas okay okay since pj kelp bugging n bugging me to update my blog, i shall do it. haha. yes dear i miss u too. miss havin tat someone whom no matter how close we r, no matter how often we c each other eveyrday, i wil nv ger seriously pissed off by her. haa. i stil love u e most pj! lol. yea tml gg ur hse. i bet i wun get any studyin done. AGAIN. haha.

n yea. v long since i blogged. got a new ec le. ahha. oh hav i mentioned him b4? i duno. lol. is a ip1. haha. shucks rite. vballer too. tall. cute. to me la. haha.

hmms vb camp jus over. very tiring. but v fulfilling. we achieved much of our objectives. so im glad. we really wana b champs. =D
very glad to hav found tis bunch of teammates. found many many great frenz n memories.
n of cuz glad tat im on gd terms wit some of e vb guys. i miss e closeness btw vb guys n girls lke back in ass.

okay la. nth much to say le. til nex time.. haha.

i Not Stupid Too was superb..

2006-02-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

yea. jus wen to watch ' I Not Stupid Too ', really was a brilliant movie. The movie depicted wad happens in true reality, leetin ppl b able to c how bein teenagers really is, wad we go thru. Jack Neo is really a talent, he managed to capture these true emotions. The themesong is good, now listenin to it, w/o e lyrics but oh gosh, its so damn gd. jus listenin.. brings on a.. bittersweet feeling. n Shawn is jus damn gd lookin. shuai. gosh. feel as thou my dream guy jus came along. lol. n he's younger den me by a yr.. haha. oh well. he is gd lookin. ha. all muz go watch e movie!!

happy is me. =D

2006-02-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

gotten back my results n boy m i glad. i'm really v v grateful to God for blessin me n lettin my wish come true. i managed to get L1R5 6 n only 1 B! haa. so happy. so proud of myself. i proved to others n myself tat i can do it. hees. i got 6A1s, 3A2s and 1 B3! hehhhs. n happy for all my frenz hu did well. hope deb cheers up. well i'l stop here. ha.

happy chinese new yr

2006-01-27T04:31:00.000-08:00

its been so long since i blogged. haa. have been real bz wit sch n trnns. now trnn is thrice a wk n 2 days of gym.. tired. ha. vjc is real fun.. but gettin tired of lectures already.. esp. chem. hmms. had some.. disagreements wit my ct. apparantly he tinks im takin his place. but its ptless to hav a follower as a leader..things get done too slowly. oh well. chg topic. hmms missin pj! haa. so long nv c u le. but i oso really tired n bz. bleahs. i noe ur enjoyin life wit *cough cough* haha so gd 4 u. ur lucky thou. vjc guys r pathetic. for our batch tat is. i tink j2s r abit beta, whereas our j2 snrs tink our batch standard beta, lol. eyein candies wit pearl n cassandra. lol. den pearl asked if we might b other ppl's eye candy.. hahaha. so cute la she. i love my teammates. hees. i hope xi ying comes back soon. im takin her place now n coach seems v convinced her case is slip disc n she wun b able to play for comp but i hope she'l b back. she'l do a beta job den me.
oh wad e crap. im sick n my dad is naggin me to go clean doors. lke wth. IM SICK.
screw.

ICIS-INVIGOUR!!

2006-01-03T04:07:00.000-08:00

I LOVE VJC LIFE.

haaa. jus love e atmosphere, e environment, e enthusiasm. rocks big time. love e cheerin. haa.

c e ogls, i oso wana b one nex yr. lol. den wana b in council too. duno can cope not. hehhs. c how ba. hees. hope all my other frenz r enjoyin shc life jus lke i m. hugs. miss u guys.

happy new year

2006-01-01T06:57:00.000-08:00

happy new year everyone. haa. once agn its been a long time since i blogged.. ytd wen to countdown at esplanade. saw fireworks. v nice. wen wit victor, jules, boon, j n zuojie. oh ya n tk. haha. ya den lit sparklers while walkin to raffles mrt.. den wen to amk mrt to eat. boon's 2 pri sch frenz den joined us. after tat wen home at abt 2plus. slept at 3 n woke up at 1.20pm today. lol. supposed to go for class gatherin but din. n wads worst was i gave my frenz e wrong info. mrs lim's kid was actually a he but i tot it was a she. lol tink mereith wanted to buy sth for mrs lim kid n in e end its e wrong sex. hope he din buy a pink dress for her. haa.

bought e adidas bag! whahaha. i love it man. hehhs. wana get a new wallet too. hmms. on a spendin spree la. haa. sch's startin agn. its so fast. gettin to meet new ppl, make new frenz, missin old frenz. i'l owaes love 4605. i hope i'l b able to find such a great bunch of frenz in vj n b in a great, fun class too. lookin forward to trnn..

i duno wads happenin but feelin sth agn.. its lke so stupid, on n off. but i wun do ath abt it i guess. aint fair. jus enjoy makin new frenz in sch. of cuz, i stil tink deric's gd lookin.. haaa.

oh n did i mention ath abt my class chalet? i wen to learn roller bladin!!! n i din fall down alot of times. only abt 8 or 9. haha. victor claims its 10 thou, countin in all my screams n shrieks. lol. idiiot la him. haa. well my butt stil hurts now but it was really fun. hope to go roller bladin agn soon. hees. n I LOVE DRUMS! haa at downtown, we went to play arcade, den we played e drums. lol. its damn fun n now im hooked on it. hees. ok la. nth much to say le. hope 2006 wil b great for everyone. take care my dear frenz in 46, n i hope we meet up soon. hugs. love u all.

kenneth neo--> e new age bastard

2005-12-23T02:49:00.000-08:00

kenneth neo ur such a goddamn bastard. man all guys r jerks. u aint diff from luke tan. jus ended a rs n ur on to a new girl, n its e same girl who was one of e reasons for e breakup. gosh ur such an asshole. i hope u burn in hell. ur not worthy of her love, or of anybody's love. ur a fucker.

i love my life!

2005-12-18T21:37:00.000-08:00

okaz its been a long time since i last blogged. many stuff hav happened.. an asshole willingly gave away sth precious. well its his loss. hmms im enjoyin my work.. makin new frenz.. talkin laughin at work.. great captains.. khalic, deric, sean, roy.. but sad khalic migrated le. my fav cap! haa nvm. now got anr one take over le. lol. =p cant wait to work banquet agn!! hees. tml's xmas party at pf's hse. hahaha been on shoppin spree recently. so funn. hehhs. k la i oso lazy to blog. haha.

im waitin for maple...

2005-12-07T03:38:00.000-08:00

hmms. worked at joaquim ytd nite.. den din hav enuf slp today jiu go for scouting le.. today quota 20 man.. find lke hell.. den last one is jiamin help me find de.. haa. saw alot of jap girls today.. hmms. did i blog abt my 1st day at owrk at joaquim? haa. if i din den here it is. monday nite was my 1st day.. at joaquim, tis guy came along.. den danny the manager told me to follow him. at 1st tot he quite dao but turns out he was jus shy. HAHA. well i took a long time to chg but he stil waited for me so he's actually quite nice la. yup. den slowly warm up. haa. siva buddied me n him, nicholas, so he guided me n taught me. he v nice, help me take soup, carry e heavy stuff, clear table, pick up broken stuff. now tat i tink abt it, i tink i did blog abt me breakin 3 glassware on my 1st day? haa if im repeatin den so paiseh. hees. ya den he looks abit lke chen han. lol. quite a nice guy la. ask me go drink soup while workin. lol. den gg home, happened to leave at abt e same time.. den we went 4 supper. rather, buy bread from breadtalk, sat somewher n ate. haa. quite nice to talk to him la. buddy buddy. haa. den tel him help me ask e girls in his sch wana do tv ads or not. haa. den 2nd nite, wh was ytd.. met san san n weiying. both oso v nice. haa. susu oso. haa ytd not as many ppl as mon so managed to clear n go home earlier den mon. somemore all girls lo. girl power.aha. hmms. den tis fri got banquet wit pj. finally wit my own fren. yay. haa. tml gg ktv wit pf n other gals. bringin my little sis along. aha. n e reason y im stil crappin n crappin.. is cuz im waitin for ta stupid maplestory to b done! idiot. some maintenance or i duno wad la. so suay la. i worked for past 2 nites, tis morn oso, den pian pain muz wen im home wana play den down. argh.

boring..

2005-12-03T19:29:00.000-08:00

hmms. sunday. no work. cant wait for tml man.. to start work. haa. hmms. cleared my rm ytd. of cuz haven clear finish. haha. there's so much more to go. bleahs. wana go vjc trnn.. msged gwen twice to ask le but she din reply. bleahs. i wana hit e gym too. lol. wish me luck for tml's scouting.. i wana finally reached my quota! haa. i was short of one the last time. den if not counting a girl who was 15 n anr who was 16, den ok im short of 3. >.<

hmms. i stil duno abt it. i cant control my feelings. i duno wad to do. if i used my brains , i noe tat it wud b e rite choice. but a rs isnt abt brains but feelings. my feelings are stil unsure. i dun wan to b anr ag.

1st day at work

2005-11-30T04:34:00.000-08:00

kz went to work jus now. quite fun. althou tirin. my back ached. haa. n i din reach my quota. somemore some girls wh i chose not to approach were apparently interested! cuz they gave their name n num to the other scouts. haa. nvm. ming tian hui gen hao! hehhs. den jus now saw jiaobin. haha. wearin luke's shirt. lol. tat guy. lookin as shuai as ever. haha. fanny, my supervisor, tot he was my boyfren. haha. i told her he's my ex boyfren's fren. she laughed. haha she looks so hostile at 1st but is actu quite frenly. very nice. hehhs. hahaha n omg i cant believe i actu saw joel n sonia tgtr!!!! haha. as in. from e way they looked, i believe there's sth gg on btw dem. n e tests they exchged in frenster. hahaha its lke so unbelievable la. cuz we were in e same pri sch, but they were diff classes. den they r in diff sec schs but now they hav tis tink bloomin btw dem. haa i duno la but lke nv expect los. hehhs.
n i hope to find anr part time job, one wh gives me a more stable income. haha. wish me luck! tml gg job huntin wit agnes. lol.

went swimmin

2005-11-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

hmms. i hate e smell of chlorine. after bathin n usin chunks of shampoo n body foam i stil smel whiffs of chlorine. or mayb im tinkin too much. haa. im gg for work tml! 1st day. haa. do talent scoutin. or rather i jus approach ppl la. if they're interested in doin advertisements den take dwn their name n num. yup. haa. in e end had to ps e vb girls. supposed to go sentosa. haa. sorry babes. hehhs.

i love my dp! haaa. went to watch just lke heaven tat day. quite nice. i kept yawnin thou. haha. n someone kept count. lol. was great lyin on ur shoulder. haa. to b honest, im havin very positive feelins tis few days. n im very happy wit my feelins im havin. hehhs. hope they remain tat way.

kz 12 is comin n im supposed to b plannin for e class outin on tat day. but i hav absolutely no idea wad to do. >.< can someone giv me suggestions please?? gosh. i hate leadership roles smtms. or organising roles. wadever.

oh tat goon. 1st he took such a long time to online cuz his sis was usin. now he's online. within 3 mins his dad's usin. >.< nvm. bein nice me i shall wait of cuz. poor me. haa. i love my dp! =p

one of e worst moments of my life..

2005-11-25T23:56:00.000-08:00

horrendous.. havin to choose btw vjc n njc.. choosin one wud mean losin stuff tat mattered alot to me.. choosin e other oso meant e same.. i had to choose btw vb.. pj.. n.. someone else. i cried lke hell. broke dwn in front of my dad n mum. stressed up even after Os. wad a crap life tis is. well in e end i chose vjc.. wh means none of my best frenz wud b in e same jc as me.. someone tat matters alot to me wud b far away.. but i stil hav my vb i guess. n if i really cant cope wit vb n studies.. i'l hav to drop my vb. choices, choices. nv easy.

n pj.. oh well. she's driftin further n further lo. spendin lke almost every day wit him. im complainin i guess. althou i shudnt b. cuz they'l b gg diff schs after all. but oh well. takes time gettin used to. guess tat was wad i put her thru in e past too. wad comes ard goes ard i guess.

can choices get any harder. wen choosin sth u love means givin up sth u oso love. choosin wad u wan means giv up sth wh u oso wan. choosin sth but givin up sth else tat cud hav been. if only it was easier..

grad ball

2005-11-24T17:30:00.000-08:00

haa grad ball was ytd. fun. great. hehhs. someone looked smashing. lol. everyone was so pretty n handsome. ahah our class guys looked great. lol. althou they more or less looked e same
hahaha. collar shirt inside blazer out, its jus e diff colors they wore. lol. bi hui looked hot man in tat sexy short yellow/orange dress but she noe nuts abt sittin properly. lol. took lotsa pics. haa. victor took part in e game. lol. hashir kp dashin up to win prices. leny n limei won. hasir n limei oso both got a price n bein mr anderson n e.. knight of valour? female knight of valour la. haha. after tat wanted to go mdm wong hse find her wit her bdae cake cuz she din go.. but she wasnt a home i tink. n e cake was crushed anw. so in e end we walk walkin in suntec den play in arcade. haa. after tat went idnner ta pizza jiu go home le. haa. walked til feet hurt. kp holdin on to some of e guys' arms. haha even took off my heels n walk. lol. its a liberatin experience. haa. very fun ytd. had some ver special n cherished moments. haa.

shoppin spree!!

2005-11-19T07:14:00.000-08:00

whahaha Os finally over. jus went on a shoppin spree wit pf n pj. lol. spend 60 over..haa. 1st time i soent so much in a day. cuz i dun shop often la. haa. bought 2 tops from I.P. sth.. lol. cant rmbr. at 16 only. haa. den bought a shawl for grad ball.. den a handbag.. den.. a necklace. to go wit e pendant tat e girls bought for me for my bdae. haa thanx alot! i lke it. hees. hahaha n now i jus called pf whose stil at orchard to help me buy anr top!! lol. its a tube top n i lke it ALOT... but din buy cuz scared dad wil scold. haaa. so came back ask him permission liao den faster call pf help me buy. haaa. im so happy! lol. i love tat top laa. haaa. den went take neopprint tgtr.. haa i lke e pics. althou showed some stuff tats not meant to b shown. hahaha. but who cares. im happy laa. haa. mon gona watch harry potter. wed's grad ball~! haa. im in a happy mood. lol stil wanted to buy shoes de lo. hahaha. nvm. anr shoppin spree durin xmas sales! hahaha.

oh yea. saw tis little boy who's only 6 n oh gosh he rocks la! haa he can play e drums damn well. he heard e song for e 1st time n after tat, he cud play it. lke how cool is tat. n wen he play drums v shuai. lol. both pf n i say we'l wait 4 him to grow up. LOL. i wana learn drums man. haa.

stressed up.

2005-11-12T18:22:00.000-08:00

im so goddamned stress abt physics. jus cant seem to get it. im so frustrated at myself. jus cried. tink im on e verge of breakin dwn. physics jus sucks.

geog wasnt too gd..

2005-11-10T21:20:00.000-08:00

hmms.. today.. emotions were mixed. high n low. ha. muz b e stress from studyin.
hmms geog today. din go too well. somehow wad i studied din stay inside. physical wasnt gd. tink tat my pts lke not enuf or v vague. dun tink wil score lo. bleahs. the paper itself sucked la. after tat. yue tink yue upset. sit at e bags n cry. 1st time man. jus leave the exam hall jiu cry le. jus dun tink i'l do well lo. somemore its geog wh is one of my easier subs to score A1. bleahs. duno la. he din even noe i cried. or tat i was upset. sad. bleahs.
hmms after tat bio was gd. paper wasnt too diff. haa. i dun wana say tat one wh describes e paper. lol. but hope to score la. essay was beta den prelims. wh says it all. LOL.

den in canteen while preparin for bio.. lol. played prank on pf. i kicked her shoe to pj n she kicked it further away. poor pf tot it jus disappeared misteriously n cudnt stop laughin cuz she found it extremely hilarious. lol. laughed lke hell. after tat energy drained. hahaha. den after bio. lol. walked past e guys. boon's bag blockin my way. jiu use bk hit his bag. he turn n look at me wit tat stupid look on his face. lol. i look back. den as he look his head move back. den at e same time xl's head turn ard. wham! boon's eyes snapped shut; xl's specs dropped dwn. hahaha. i burst out laughin. LITERALLY. lol. was damn comical la. cudnt stop laughin. lol. yea. tat cheered me up. haa. all da best for tml peepz! =D

no matter wad happens i wan us to stil b gd frenz.

2005-11-04T14:07:00.000-08:00

things are changin agn n i duno y.
this is not e way i expected it to b..
nor is it wad i wan it to b..
dun wana b tied dwn..
dun wan a rs.

havin been in a rs for 9 mths wherby everytink i did or do revolved ard someone else n not myself.. i now nd to live my life for me. dun wana b so tied to someone else agn so quickly. wana enjoy the freedom of bein single. im not sure of my feelins. but even if i were, i stil wudnt wan a rs tis yr. pls urdstd n pls forgiv me. i treasure u alot for bein my gd fren. n i dun wana lose such a fren. i wana b happy. i wan u to b happy too. lets jus let nature take its own course.. wads meant to b wil be.

life's boring..

2005-11-03T12:36:00.000-08:00

haa its been some time since i blogged.. but den agn life is so borin nowadays theres nth much to blog. everyday stay at home mug mug n mug. den bloggin wud b wastin my precious studyin time. haa. nth much happenin la. hmms. i got my gown liaos. quite nice i tink.. haa. thou im stil not totally satisfied wit it. lol. bought matchin heels. hmm. ytd went to a optician at compass.. wanted to make new specs. haa saw sth i lke. but wit my degree n astig wh is 400 plus n 300 plus respectively.. e specs wud cost 200plus. ex. haa. so decided to go back to the optician i went to since young.. at parkway wh is lke so far.. so hav ta go after Os lo. bleahs. i nv knew my degree was so high.. n my sis's degree is lke almost same as mine..she's worst since she's only 11. ha. hmms cant believe Os is starin in 4 days time.. i feel as thou i stil haven finished my revision. bleahs. i dun ask for much, 6 A1s can liao. lol. lidat my dad wil quit smokin n i'l do him proud too. haa. kkz gtg back to studyin.. hai life sure is borin.

hmms.

2005-10-29T15:01:00.000-07:00

studied til 3.30am tis morn n my stupid sis had to wake me up at 9.45am.i din even get my 8 hrs of slp. totally pissed off n damn frustrated. cuz im a light slper n once im awake i cant fall back to slp agn. den i jus went to kp my sis. haa. chi is on mon n im stil rushin thru the complied handbk.its so damn borin. bleahs.

cousins at my hse now. kinda irritatin. kp lookin at wad im doin. >.< i stil prefer babies n toddlers. haa.

hmms i saw his frenster jus now. gosh wad a flirt. im lke so disgusted. he's not jus a loser but a liar a jerk a flirt an ass. totally. his gf is disgustin too. so slutty. eeew.

but dun get me wrong, im not jealous. i love my life now. n im happy to hav him in my life. hee. he really makes me happy. =D

oh well. its back to studyin liaos. >.<

physics pract.

2005-10-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

hmms physics pract later. i hardly studied. din noe wad to study. so jus look thru pract bk n tb. cudnt find the past yr pract papers. haa. im so dead. n i din get my gown cuz my mum was SLEEPIN. wad a pig. haa.
hmms. kp wakin up to check hp ytd nite. was waitin for a gd morn msg. din receive it but he did msg me, tellin me to tc. was beta den nth i guess.

chem pract

2005-10-25T18:05:00.000-07:00

ok so chem pract sucked wit tat stupid 5 mark qns n the dirty brown ppt.. bloody hell not dirty green, not reddish brown but i got dirty brown.. n i stil put Fe3+. oh hell. jus hope tat physics pract wun b as bad on thur..
but sure had fun b4 chem pract thou. lol. our corner was so noisy. haha. playin wit paper.. makin tat loud pop sound. haha jason was damn gd man his pop was LOUD.. lol. mine was.. soft. haha but not as bad as victor who cudnt do it no matter how many times he tried n after tat he said tat we're childish.. lol! bi hui cudnt do it too. haa 6pointers.
yeaa gona get my gown tml! hope it'l turn out great wit my heels den dun havta buy new heels. hmms gg kovan for sushi later. haa.

im sorry.

2005-10-23T18:10:00.000-07:00

im sorry. but giv me some time.

thank you dear Lord.

2005-10-22T21:00:00.000-07:00

thank you dear Lord for answerin my prayers, for helpin us n guidin my family thru tis period of difficult times. not all our problems r solved yet, but thank you for taking part of the load of our shoulders. a million thank yous cannot convey my gratitude but all e same, i thank you once again.

tired.

2005-10-20T21:07:00.000-07:00

i jus had my sis giv me ting xie for the alphabets A-E n im mentally exhausted. i nv knew havin ting xie cud b so tiring. n e worst tink was i forgot quite some words. damn. there r stil lke 20 plus more alphabets. how to rmbr everytink. argh. i'l love to chat wit him rite now. he'l b able to make me smile. waitin for him to come online. hmm.

pj..

2005-10-19T21:00:00.000-07:00

pj.. jus wana say sorry. i wasnt in a gd mood ytd la. den ken make me. i jiu bth lo. sorry bout my lousy attitude k.

bio pract sucked.

2005-10-18T14:52:00.000-07:00

e bio pract sucked. i din hav time to finish one qns n i wasnt in such a bad mood until tat asshole kenneth laughed at my name agn. wads so funny abt teo teng lai u loser. im proud of my name ok u no manners brute. i din even laugh at ur name so f off from my name. u piss me off. n ur apology wasnt accepted.

n thanks idiot for pang sehin me. say got msg me oso din. i waited 4 u lor. anr idiot. i duno who's e bigger one, u or me cuz i WAITED FOR U. i dun wana talk to u yummie idiot.

n to those from my claz who saw my blog, pls rmbr to bring the card for mdm wong TML. physics starts at 8.

runnin from kitty!

2005-10-16T19:39:00.000-07:00

lol i jus came home from dinner. n i cant believe tat i actu RAN AWAY from a kitten. lol. so paiseh!! haha. my stupid sis la. lol. saw e kitten on e way home. she approached it n started mewin to it. n e kitten jus went to my sis n started.. rubbin? rubbin agst her legs. the kitten din wana stop n jus kp rubbin lol. i told my sis to walk away from it n after tat it came in my direction. i was kinda freaked out n jus backed away. LOL. so scary wher got cats so open wan, jus go to u willingly n rub?? lol. i was scared haha i din wan it to rub agst my legs too lol. den the kitten continued in my direction n e nex tink i did was turn n RAN. lol. i cant believe tat i actu did tat. lol so damn paiseh. n my stupid sis kept mewin at it n beckonin it to follow us. LOL. she's an idiot la she ran wit me den after tat she mew at e kitten, wantin it to follow us. lol. but e kitten is pitiful.. it was cute too la but its eagerness to cuddle agst ppl freaked me out. lol. so sui pian. hahaha. jkjk. lol.

raining day..

2005-10-16T16:44:00.000-07:00

its such a great rainin day.. hav been rainin non-stop since 1.. yet i cant even slp in peace! woken up TWICE by phone calls. only slept from 3 to 4.30. poor me. now im grouchy. grrr. kp waitin for him to online but he din, so i shut dwn e com n went to slp. now tat im back online, he's stil nowher to b seen. idiot.

hees.

2005-10-15T22:46:00.000-07:00

ok. im happy now. =P

vjc open hse

2005-10-15T20:07:00.000-07:00

wen vjc open hse today wit the guys, pf bh deb n leny..hmms.. the place kinda old..not as interestin n nice as ny.. i lke ny beta lehs.. hmms. den e vb players so tall! i go there sure sit bench de lo.. bleahs. den the bus trip so long.. oso quite sians. ha e claz guys so idiot.. wishy washy.. at 1st wan go beach.. den they tu tu tu.. jiu nv go liao.. wen parkway lunch.. saw larre.. he said pei en n many others went e open hse too.. but i din c dem los. sians. hope to meet up wit dem soon den go c ms chua n her baby! haa. hmms. breakfast was kinda funny. most of e guys ate lke 2 burgers. lol. den lunch at parkway.. ask dem wan eat wad jiu anytink anytink..tel me n pf to decide.. den ok lo since yoshinoya rite in front jiu go yoshinoya eat.. den after tat e guys lke dun wan eat. den i sian diao lor n started to kinda scold dem. ha. idiots lo the whole gang, wishy washy den dun wan decide eat wad.. den we decide liao they dun wan eat.. dne they shud decide in e 1st place ma.. idiots la. haa. but sorry guys i din mean to yell at ur la.. jus cant stand ur wishy washyness. n i wasnt angry. lol. jus.. rash. ha. den pf pulled me away. funny. lol. i wasnt even angry. haha. ya guys.. ur dun so wishy washy la pls.. girls dun lke guys to b wishy washy de.. but i stil love ur. aha. den on e bus back home lol! hahaha. i blew e.. bubble? do u call it bubble? lol. anws. i blew it wit e idea of addin mickey mouse ears to pf's balloon..but it cudnt stick.. den as i held it in my hand, lookin at it, a sudden temptation took over me n i immediately burst the bubble agst jason's face. lol. it was DAMN funny. hahaha. j was shocked. n the tattered remains of the bubble stuck to his specs. hahaha. den he began blowin one too, n i sincerely believe, wit e intention of slammin it agst my face. but hahaha as he was blowin wit the straw btw his lips n the bubble rite in front of his face, a great idea came to me once agn n i smashed the bubble agst his face. agn. LOL. hahaha i cudnt stop laughin. victor looked at me wit eyes there were.. scoldin? haha i duno but it was funny. lol. im sorry jason! haha actu im not sorry at all. hahaha. den after tat.. i blew anr one agn.. haha n tis time.. i smashed it in victor's face. but it din exactly burst but kinda stuck to his specs. haha. he had a hard time peelin it off? lol. n he had to adjust his specs. lol. im sorry victor. haha. but actu.. im not. LOL. i m so mean.. hahaha. but oh well. it was fun. haa. rite yummy vic? haha.
den went pf's hse.. girl im glad tat u cud talk to me abt those stuff. i wud owaes b here 4 u if u nd me n we'l go to e same jc yea? or poly. wadever it is. hehhs. frenz forever. or rather.. sisters forever. =] hugs. love ya.

hmms i duno abt his feelins.. but.. i hope? hmms. perhaps he noes mine, since im lke kinda obvious? lol. but if he doesnt den nvm. if things r meant to b, it will b. n he's jus great. hehhs. im not sayin anytink. lol.

great memories.

2005-10-13T20:16:00.000-07:00

after geog today.. stayed back in claz n jus hang ard wit jules n the guys.. jason n gang.. was fun to jus sit dwn.. take pics of each other.. talk..threw eraser at each other (i threw n it hit victor's head anw haha).. i din feel lke leavin. din wana leave. den we walked to amk tgtr. said lame jokes. stepped on their shoes. jus enjoyed the moment of bein wit dem. its funny y ppl noe how to cherish n treasure more only wen they're gona b losin it soon.. k mayb its jus me but.. i duno in e past i din treasure e times spent wit e guys as much as i do now.. im such an idiot i guess. hai i really dun wana part wit dem. i wan so much 2b in e same claz wit dem nex yr..

hmms he makes me laugh he makes me smile.. he makes me happy. he duno my feelins but im happy to jus b frenz wit him. he's jus great. hees.

happy birthday jules

2005-10-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

happy birthday jules! im sorry we cudnt go out tgtr today but anr day wen pj can den we go take neo tgtr. althou we can jus use ur digicam la. haha. hope u lke ur watch. n u'l b havin anr prex 4 e guys. haha. shant tel u wad yet. lol. may all ur wishes n dreams come true n score well for Os ok? den we wil b in same jc! hehhs. i love u girl. love u alot depsite our cold wars n quarrels n unhappiness. thanks for bein ther 4 me, for e great times spent tgtr. best frenz forever. hugs.

farewell day.

2005-10-12T16:40:00.000-07:00

today was farewell day. was actu sceptical abt wad e sch has planned for us tat wud succeed in makin us cry. i din tot i wud cry. but i was so wrong. givin ppl e green ribbon. all e hugs. all e tears. all e smiles. all e frenships. i love u guys so much. really.

gave e 1st ribbon to mrs tan. wanted to thank her for givin me e chance at e start of e year. was only onto my 2nd sentence wen my throat was already so clogged wit emotion i cud hardly speak. mrs tan cudnt bear wit us too. wen she made her speech she looked as thou she wanted to cry. after tat was e vballers. gosh i nv knew how much i missed dem til i hugged dem agn. all e memories came floodin back. e happy trnn days. e sad trnn days. we laughed tgtr. cried tgtr. n we cried tgtr agn. today. now tat i tink back, i cant even rmbr if i hugged li mei. lol. if i din, well i love u babe. but i rmbered huggin jingyi. she was desperately holdin her tears back while i jus cried my heart out on her shoulders. for wad had been. wad cud be. n wad wil be. bein on e court wit her by her side owaes made me feel safe. i nv knew tat she too appreciated me by her side too. den grace. huggin someone taller den me tightly felt so gd. she cried n i cried n we wanted to b in e same team agn. jean was precious. she said thanks for bein her teammate. i told her she was our best setter. wh is e truth. she even apologised 4 not playin beta or more seriously. cant rmbr clearly. seein ur teammates cry jus makes u cry wit dem too. i nv knew how muich i missed dem n love dem til we hugged agn. n small von. miss e old times. miss e best frenship we used to hav.
huggin puay fen made me feel so secure. havin her by my side as a fren has owaes made me feel secure. she din cry. ha. but i noe she's appreciatin her frens jus lke us too. den jules. man huggin her n cryin wit her jus made everytink rite agn. im sorry jules. lke i said jus now, for all e times i att u, for all e times i caused unhappiness btw us, im sorry. i dun mean it. anws im glad tats behind us now. i guess every frenship has its ups n downs. jus tat we hav our downs more often. haa. ur stil my best fren. n u wun b disappointed tis yr. so dun disappoint us too k? hope u'l enjoy urself tml. n we'l hav so much fun. =] love u girl. pj. ha she wet my blouse. den she wiped it, causin it to stick to my arm. eeew. hahaha. hugged her n cried agn, apologisin agn. gosh im such a lousy fren. apologisin to so many ppl. but yea. im sorry i pangsehed u n jules n my other frenz in e past b4 but it wudnt happen agn. seriously. u were e ones hu were there 4 me n i wana b there 4 u too. esp u pj. even if we dun end up in e same jc. im sure we wud stil b lke we r today. e best of best frenz. hugs.

haa i went rd huggin e guys. lol. yea call me flirt call me loose but i dun tink i m. im jus expressin my love 4 my clazmates thru huggin. im liberal. ha. i mean, we're all 16 already. y e awkwardness btw guys n gals? huggin doesnt mean anytink. its jus a form of expressin ur affections. hehhs. anws. yea hugged fabian 1st. ha. den was.. hmms singhwa. n jiahao. haha they r losers lo so awkward abt huggin. lol. ppl lke boon hong n victor were so on! they din feel any awkwardness. which is gd. it shows their sense of maturity. ha. yea boon hong surprised me. i nv expected him to so readily hug me back. he's such a great guy. he din lke jus put his arms ard but there was a huge gap btw e bodies. he jus.. hugged. lol. he even bent dwn to hug jules. lke how sensitive is tat? i jus realised he's a SNAG too. hao nan ren. haha i realise our claz got quite alot of hao nan rens. lol. haha n idiot victor. wen hug him, knock my teeth agst his collar bone. idiot seh. lol. but oh well. at least i can reach his collar bone. hahaha. but yea he was cool abt it too. wh is great. =] hashir was cool abt it too. xl was shy haha but after tat he did it but he was stil shy. lol. jason was oso shy. haha. so cute la our claz guys. i'l miss dem so much. n i nearly forgot. jingzhi was anr cool guy. he had absolutely no qualms abt holdin my hand durin e last item today! ha. he jus wasnt affected los. lol. n he did lke jus hold one finger tat kinda tink. lol. our claz really got quite a few hao nan rens. 1) boon hong. 2) jingzhi. 3) victor. 4) zuojie. 5) xuelin. n how cud i forget. 6) jason. haha. not bad. our claz guys got hope. lol. i love u guys! ha.

i realised i lke huggin. haha i dun mean anytink horny ok. lol. jus.. it was gd to jus hug ppl u love, cry wit dem. or jus hug dem lke e guys. i lke tis form of showin affection. a handshake is jus so formal. hehhs. n oh no i tinkim really fallin for him. lol. he's jus so.. cute. haa. ok la mayb cute isnt e word but.. ya. he's great. hehhs. cant help starin. lol. duno if its jus a crush or?? haha. i duno. but i dun tink things wud work out la. yea. im happy jus carryin a torch for someone. lol. but sad i cant c him so often anymore le. haha. *secretive*

but back to frenships. pj n jules. we're best frenz since.. sec 3? i duno. cant rmbr wen exactly 3 of us became a grp but we jsu did n its great. i noe i hav been mean to u guys, att u, n im sorry noe. even durin e quarrel wit pj or durin e cold wars we wud hav in claz wit jules, i stil love u both alot. i hope we wud owaes remain e best of best frenz.

puay fen n li mei, both of u owaes gave me mature n great advice n i thank u both. for stadnin by me whether i nd it or not. i may kp suanin ur but i really appreciate ur. love u 2 loads.

bi hui n deb, we may not b tat close but ur r stil in my heart. thanks for e concern ur showed. love u too.

n.. guys. hai i'l really miss ur so so much. e guys we're surrounded by, singhwa, victor, jiahao, zuojie, guodong, xuelin. u guys jus made life so wonderful. so happy. full of laughter n joy. i cant imagine lessons n life w/o u guys. sad tat we'l b partin. but hope we'l b in e same jc. even more sad tat i wun b in same claz as ur. since i'l b in e arts stream. duno if i shud take sciences, cuz if i do, tat means i can stil b in same claz wit ur. but i duno. jus noe tat i love u guys. for alle joy ur brought me. ur crap, ur shit, ur jokes, n jus bein u. we're e circus! haha. hugs. not 4gettin jason, boon hong, cheesheng, teng kiat.. yea e usual gang. love u. i'l really miss u guys. dun ever 4get me k cuz i'l nv b able to 4get u.

4/6. sworn to perfection.

tml's e last day of sch..

2005-10-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

hmms.. tml's e last day of sch..at 1st wasnt too affected by it..cuz i noe i'l stil b seein my claz for lessons n open hses..but after seein pj's blog.. hmms. e time for us tgtr as a claz is really gettin v short.. in fact..its comin to an end soon.. i'l really really miss u guys so damn much.. i'l miss jules puay fen li mei bi hui deborah.. singhwa victor jiahao zuojie guodong xuelin.. hashir jason boon hong chee sheng.. man e list jus goes on.. e girls.. e guys.. but esp e grp of ppl im surrounded by in class..in future i wun get to poke singhwa..nor victor n jiahao.. wun get to c jiahao's zi pian zi dao zi yan.. wun get to c victor's coolness.. wun get to hear xuelin's high pitched childish comments.. wun get to c guodong act cute agn.. tats y today in sch.. kept lookin at e guys in front of me..tryin to capture as much memories as possible..even if we do get into e same jc..i dun tink i'l b in e same claz as dem..cuz i'l b in e arts stream.. everyone else seems 2b gg for sciences..wh is sad.. how i wish we wudnt hav to separate.. 4/6 i really love u guys.. althou our class guys r stil so childish but i'l stil say tis.. i love u guys!! n im gona miss ur so much.. hmms. dun tink wil cry tml..? i duno wad e sch has planned 4 us n can make us cry.. i'l stil b seein my claz on fri for geog n sat for vjc open hse.. so its not so bad.. i guess..

as for pj.. i noe we'l stil kp in contact.. we definitely will.. cuz i noe tat no matter e dist btw us..we'l owaes b best frenz.. even if we haven been chattin for a long while..tats jus how special e frenship is btw us.. jus lke u've owaes been there 4 me.. in future i'l definitely b there 4 u too..thou of cuz it wud b best if we go same jc.. go vjc la.. haaa. i love u pj.

jules..i love ya too. muz jiayou for Os..we'l study tgtr after sch ends..n hope u'l enjoy urself tis thur.. u were there 4 me too wen i nded someone n i thank u 4 tat..lkewise i'l owaes b here if u nd me.. same for pf lm bh n deb.. u gals wud owaes b in my heart..my special buddies who accepted me for who i m.. n stood by me wen e whole world came crashin dwn on me..thanks for all e support..i love u gals.

thanks my frenz for all e memories.. i hope there'l stil b more in future.. hugs. i love 4/6.

kinda pissed off n disappointed.

2005-10-11T17:43:00.000-07:00

wanted to buy her a bdae prex. so she'l b happy. managed to get all e money in a day. but in e end she says she doesnt wan or nd anytink. tgtr wit a att tat sucked. tats wad i get 4 bein her best fren hu wanted to giv her her bdae prex on time. we were really sincere abt gettin her a prex. but cold water was dashed upon us all by the unappreciative response. its at least basic courtesy to accept a prex or ans me nicely rather den giv a sucky att. pissed me off since i was really sincere abt it.
really cant stand it wen u pms or att n the crap lasts e whole day. spoils my day esp wen im cut off by u from pf in class. i really din wana say stuff lke tis on e blog. but i duno how else to tel u. sorry bout usin such a way of sayin. but i stil love u girl. u'l owaes b my best fren.

hai disappointed.

2005-10-10T15:00:00.000-07:00

i jus got home from sch. jus checked our L1R5 n class n level position. damns im 30th in class n 98th in the level. tat sucks lo. sians puay fen got 7 i got 9 but she's 7th in class n 21st in level.. but oh well. she did well in all her subs. i hav lke 2 C5s. ha. but.. aiya. sian diao. duno lidat i can get into the top 5 jcs not. but i really wana do my dad proud.. but at e same time. the gd jcs r lke so far.. hais. duno la. jiu abit sian diao liao.

but nvm. im definitely gona work hard n score straight As for Os! haa i hope. lol. hmms gg town on thur. but b4 tat wil hav geog lesson. wh is lke boring. hmm stil cant decide whether i shud wear my white heels wit my brown gown/3/4 dress den buy a white necklace to pei or shud buy black heels instead. n duno if i shud do anytink abt my hair. n duno wad earrings to wear. LOL. lke so silly stupid tinks. haha. but i cant wait thou. hehhs.

lol oh ya n ytd i was lke so stupid. lol. cuz watched date wit vampire 3. my fav show man. simply rocks. ya anws. cuz e show was lke abt ghosts. scary. wads more im e timid type. lol. ya anws. i was on my bed, lights off already. den i saw tis shadow crouching at my table. i cud lke c a white shirt n dark pants on the guy n he seemed to b lookin in my direction. gosh i was lke so so freaked out. i din dare go on e lights cuz if i switched on e lights i wud havta walk past e shadow n i din dare to. i was so scared, heart thumpin n was tinkin of callin fadzli wen i realised tat callin him is useless. so i called my house phone instead. lol. i knew my dad was stil awake so i called him n told him to come into my rm n help me swtich on my lights. n guess wad. e shadow was cuz of a stool in my rm, wit books on it n bags at e leg of e stool. hhaa. sure freaked me out 4 nth. lol. wild imagination huh. haha. but oh hell. i admit. im timid! lol.

okaz i'l stop here le. haa. i muz study hard!

my first entry. =]

2005-10-09T20:48:00.000-07:00

once agn.. a new blog, new entry, new beginning.
wanted to start anr blog agn n tis time rd, update it regularly. ha.
life's been gd, ever since e incident a month ago. how time flies, its already more den a mth. ive picked up e pieces n moved on in life, in fact, i tink im beta den ive ever been b4. scored quite well for my prelims, as compared to my lousy grades in e past. thank God for giving me the strength n courage, and lettin me obtain such grades.

but yet anr dilemma comes along, duno which jc to go. or rather, is it poly or jc for me. it remains a mystery. but at least i hav til after the Os b4 finally deciding. but one thing's for sure, i'l miss my besties n class. 4/6 is e best class ive ever been in n it sure makes me sad to think that we'l b partin. wudnt it b nice if we cud all go to e same jc n b in e same class back agn. oh well. nth's gona b e same agn.

heard from him today n ytd. he's havin some probs wit his new gal. surprisingly, i actu advised him abt his probs n how to b a beta bf. wierd huh. but i felt nth. i duno. guess im lettin go faster den i tot wud. i thank God agn, for helpin me cope thru tat difficult period, for giving me great frenz who stood by me.

im happy wit my life now. i hav my best frenz. close frenz from outside. my family, my studies. im bondin much beta wit my family now, esp my dad. i can tel he's real proud of me abt my prelim results. tellin my uncle that i even got 2 A1s wen actu, 2 A1s is lke so meagre. lol. but i can reall tel his proud. i guess after 4yrs of disappointment, i finally gave him reason 2b proud of me agn. there n den in e car, i realised tat i wanted to score straight As for my Os. just for my dad. to do him proud. i wan to proudly tel my family durin new yr tat im in raffles jc for e 1st 3 mths. even if not raffles, den at least one of the top 5 jcs. i hope. but yea. im happy wit my life now. content wit bein hu i m now. no pressure from anyone. guess i'l stop here. sis is rushin me. she wana play maple. haha. ok shes scoldin me now. lol. wad an a**. hahaha. kiddin baby sis. tata everyone.